Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 7 of the challenge

Day 7 — Write a letter to: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush


Dear "sperm donor" - I haven't heard from you in 2 years, you sent what seemed to me as a half-hearted response to my email about our son. I find it very hard to believe that you really did care, or wanted to help me. And the fact that you didn't believe me about the child being yours just shows what a complete and total jerk you really are. Do you really think I had anything to gain by lying to you about a child I wasn't keeping? And the fact that you felt as if there was nothing you could offer me at the time pisses me off, you didn't give any support to me during the pregnancy, birth or placement. I don't mean monetary, I mean emotional. I never asked for money, I didn't even ask for emotional support. But a good man would have offered some, instead of pushing me aside, and telling me lies. Apparently you have a higher sperm count than you thought, and your poor gay friend was out a child, but here our 5 woman with a child that we didn't plan for.
You showed little disregard for me as a person, and only cared about covering your ass. Remember the email my friend sent to your then girlfriend, and the phone call you made to me, telling me to tell her it wasn't true. How low, I'm still so confused by that. Why wouldn't you have just come clean then. As much as I wanted to reach out to her and tell her it was true, I didn't. I'm not quite sure why I never told her, but I didn't. It wasn't for me to do, that was your mistake to tell her about. And I hope that it came back to bite you in your ass. 
And I don't doubt for a minute that there are other children, what I find hard to believe is that of the 4 other girls who claim to have had your child you didn't even know 2 of them. And hearing that you possibly have 4 other children around the same age as our son just solidifies my decision to have you sign over all rights and give him to another man who blows you out of the water. I couldn't have picked a better family for our son, and the fact that you will never know him is bittersweet. I hate that he'll never know what a truly awful human being you are, but I'm so glad he'll never know that as well. I don't plan on bad mouthing you to our son in the future, nor did I bad mouth you in the letter I wrote him before he was born that his parents have so he can read it. You might find that hard to believe, but I thought I'd let him make his own decisions about you. And who knows, years from his birth you might be a wonderful man, married and with children of your own. I hope that is the case, I hope you have seen the errors of your ways and I hope you one day find happiness. But I don't think you have yet.
I'm very happy with my life now, and I have a wonderful husband now, and he'll make a better father than  you will probably ever make. So thank you for being you, and giving me a  beautiful son.  

Tell me: A song that reminds you of a certain event



Our first dance at our reception - Boston's "Amanda" because my father told me that whoever I married had to learn this song by heart when he asked him if he could marry me. Lucky for Steven he didn't make him sing it, lol



I want to know: A photo that makes you happy.
this because it was the happiest day of my life, and it shows off my pretty flowers and shoes!



Tell me about Your dream wedding.
I thought I had my dream wedding all figured out, but my wedding with hubby was pretty good. It wasn't lavish or fancy, it was just family and very small. It's no secret that I would have wanted more, or done things somewhat differently, but I wouldn't change who I married, and I have decided that I no longer care how my wedding turned out, it's the marriage that matters. And I'm very happy with my husband and our life together. And that my friends, means more to me than any fancy wedding.  


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Thursday, February 10, 2011

Day 6 of the challenge..

Day 6 — Write a letter to: A stranger


To Everyone who has ever spoken ill of me and my decisions - because I can't think of a better way to express my disdain. I'm so tired of people thinking poorly of me because I have a son that I don't raise, that I did what I thought was best for him. And this is for those idiots who thought I only married my husband because I wanted to get my son back. Ya'll are all effing idiots. This is MY life and this is how I want to live it. Don't you think I've suffered enough from my mistakes, that I don't need ya'll going behind my back talking shit and saying things like that. First of all, ya'll are dumb and no nothing about adoptions. I can't change my mind. By the time I met my husband it was too late, by  the time we got married it was WAY too late. I only had 10 days to change my mind. Dec 11-21 2008, those were my dates to change my mind. After those 10 days there was no turning back. So way to show your stupidity.


For everyone who ever thought I was a bad person because of the adoption, think of it this way. I could have ended the pregnancy, terminated it, taken the life of an innocent child. Excuse me for having a few morals. Sure the way I got pregnant wasn't the best situation. I'm not proud of that, I don't regret it, but it was a mistake, one that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. So, I don't need ya'll beating me up for my decisions because I already do that to myself. Enough for everyone, so I don't need ya'll to help me with that. 


I don't need to justify my actions to ANYONE, and I don't appreciate the way people put a bad stigma on adoption and birth parents. Enough already, this is the 21st century and things are a lot different now than they were a long time ago. It isn't as taboo as it was years ago, there might still be homes for unwed mothers, and people might still feel forced into adoption, but the majority of birth parents go into this freely and willingly.

Tell me: A song that reminds you of somewhere



This song reminds me of the Kappa Alpha house and all those Thursday night parties I went to when I was at Lambuth University! <3



I want to know: Your favorite music video.


This one was hard....right now though, and I don't watch music videos that much, but this one is a favorite right now



Show me A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

A Panda Bear
*image courtesy of swagbucks.com*


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Monday, February 7, 2011

Day 5 of the challenge

Day 5 — Write a letter to: Your dreams
Dear dreams - I wish you would come true on your own, and would require little to no work from me. But that just isn't possible, now is it? Well, let's try to get something attainable, okay? Let's stop setting me up for failure, because I feel like you're trying to ruin my life...so if you could just stop, that'd be great! kthnxbye

Tell me: A song that reminds you of someone


"Dear God" Avenged Sevenfold - reminds of my hubby every time, and it's the ringtone that plays when he calls, and it's the ringback tone he hears...


I want to know: Your favorite quote.


"I’m gonna smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m gonna laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m gonna let you go in style, and if it kills me- I’m gonna SMILE :]"


I want to see A photo of yourself two years ago.
March 29, 2009
(almost exactly 2 years ago)





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Day 4 of the challenge

Day 4 — Write a letter to: Your sibling (or closest relative)


Dear Siblings - I know I've not always been nice to you, or treated you fairly. And for that I'm sorry. But no matter what, you're family, and I love you. I'm very proud of both of you, and how you're turning out, you're making me proud to call you brother and sister! I hope you know you can come to me for anything. I'll do my best to help you. Love ya'll!!

Tell me: A song that makes you sad



Lee Greenwood's "God Bless the USA"



and also this one - SheDaisy's "Come Home Soon"




I want to know: Your favorite book.



These are my favorite BOOKS, I couldn't just pick one....lol...you should really check them out, they're great!





I want to see Your favorite photograph of your best friend.



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This is my bestest friend Emily! 
My other bestie is Melissa, but I don't have any pictures of her, so I'll just say HEY to my bestie!! 


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Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 3 of the challenge

Day 3 — Write a letter to: Your parents
We've had our ups and downs, but through it all, you've always been there for me. So thank you. I know I was a pain in the ass in middle school, and maybe even some of high school. And I know I've probably let ya'll down a few times, but I love you guys and will always love you guys. Thanks for everything.



Tell me: A song that makes you happy


This song is such an uplifting song, and has a great message, plus the video chokes me up a little....I love Katy Perry!




I want to know: Your favorite television program.



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*images courtesy of swagbucks.com and abc.com, collage made on photobucket.com*

(top row: Hawaii Five-0, Doogie Howser, MD, White Collar)
(middle row: Holly's World, Fairly Legal, Cougar Town)
(bottom row: General Hospital, Modern Family, Saved by the Bell)


Tell me Your idea of the perfect first date.
I'm gonna have to go with my first day weekend with the hubby...March 27-29, 2009
Friday - We went to Biba's Italian Restaurant in Soddy, then a movie, but I honestly can't remember which one, my memory SUCKS..
Saturday: Tennessee Aquarium and Downtown Chattanooga, we ate at Ruby Tuesdays downtown for lunch, I can't remember what else we did, as I said, my memory SUCKS....
Sunday: We went to church, and ate at Red Robin and stopped by Build-A-Bear, where he made me my panda bear, Artie (because the hubby is a Field Artillery Officer, hehe) before he had to head back home...

Us at the Aquarium
Artie back when he was all new and clean...
I should show you what he looks like after nearly 2 years, haha

Hands down, best date EVER!

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Thursday, February 3, 2011

Day 2 of the challenge

Day 2 — Write a letter to:  Your Crush
Obviously to my husband - It's been a long long long month, but I can't wait for you to be home. I can't believe we don't have much time left before you are gone for a year. It is going to be hard, but I know we will get through it. We've been through a lot, and I thank God for you daily. You really were an answer to a prayer and a great blessing in my life. I love you sooooooooooo much!! Thanks for everything you do and will do!!

Tell me: Your least favorite song





This song is so f'n annoying, it's like, we get it, you Whip Your Hair, is that all you know how to sing....UGH, just because BOTH your parents are famous, does not mean that you should try....

I want to know: Your favorite movie.


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*images courtesy of swagbucks.com - made into collage on photoshop.com*





The Sound of Music, and then the Twilight movies...there are quite a few more, but I figured the 4 would do...I grew up watching The Sound of Music over a thousand times. I had it on the original 2 VHS, then the remastered 1 VHS (I think I had two of those, one for each house, lol), and then the DVD version, and I'd KILL for the newest one, it's a box set....bahaha....

Take A photo of something you ate today.



Breakfast and Lunch - and for dinner, I ordered some yummy Chinese food!! Funny story about today, I locked myself out of the house this morning when I went to check the mail. I always leave the door open, but somehow it closed behind me, and I was in my PJ's, not wearing shoes or a bra, so I called the community center, because that's what they're there for, and the woman was so rude. I know WHY they wanted to see my ID, but the way she said it was just like I had no idea, and was stupid. Last I checked I wasn't. And I told her that I'd need to be let into my house before I could show an ID...hence being LOCKED OUT and not having ANYTHING but my phone, like seriously...And then when someonen came to let me in, the lady was nice, so it's like WTF dude....I told her my husband was gone, or I would have called him to let me in....it's not like I had a choice in the matter to call them. Geez, and what the heck do we pay rent for anyways....stupid people...


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Day 1 of the challenge

Day 1 — Write a letter to: Your Best Friend
(this is going to be a blanket letter to all my dear friends)
Thank you for being there for me, through everything. I know I might take ya'll for granted sometimes, but please know that I never mean to, and that I feel so bad when I do. I want ya'll to know how truly blessed I feel that you are in my life, and the past 3 years were so much easier to bear with ya'll by my side. I'm not sure if I'd be here today if it weren't for ya'll and all the love ya'll gave me, and the support, and just never turning your back. And to those who found it difficult and hard, and for those who I pushed away, I'm sorry.  I'm so sorry for everything, and I would do anything to take that back. But thank you for forgiving me and allowing us to move forward! You guys ROCK!!

Tell me/I want to know: Your favorite song





This is a good one, I love it, it was either this one or "Back to December" (which is my ringtone...) I love the words to "Dear John" and the message, it's pretty straight forward...and it might have a little to do with the fact that "sperm donor" was a John(which I've never said on here before, so probably won't ever put his name again....)...so it's kinda like I'm singing it to him...which is nice...and helps on bad days! :)


Take A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.


So this is me after I worked out tonight, it is the first time I went in a LONG time, like before I got pregnant....I did Step/Pump with my neighbor, and it man did it kick my butt! I took my glasses off so you could see my eyes, there was some serious screen glare on my glasses, HA!



 And then I had to play with the webcam, lol - I did the skiing because a lot of people on the mainland got snow, and the princess because I love princesses!! :)
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Thanks Stefanie - a 30 day blog challenge..

So I've tried a few of these before, and I think I'll try another one. This one was put together by a friend, Stefanie, she googled a few and then put them all together! What a great idea!!!! Thanks girl!!!

Let the ultimate 30 day blog challenge COMMENCE!

Day 1 — Write a letter to: Your Best Friend
Tell me: Your favorite song
 I want to know: Your favorite song.
Take A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Day 2 — Write a letter to:  Your Crush
Tell me: Your least favorite song
I want to know: Your favorite movie.
Take A photo of something you ate today.

Day 3 — Write a letter to: Your parents
Tell me: A song that makes you happy
I want to know: Your favorite television program.
Tell me Your idea of the perfect first date.

Day 4 — Write a letter to: Your sibling (or closest relative)
Tell me: A song that makes you sad
I want to know: Your favorite book.
I want to see Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Day 5 — Write a letter to: Your dreams
Tell me: A song that reminds you of someone
I want to know: Your favorite quote.
I want to see A photo of yourself two years ago.

Day 6 — Write a letter to: A stranger
Tell me: A song that reminds of you of somewhere
I want to know: Your favorite music video.
Show me A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

Day 7 — Write a letter to: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Tell me: A song that reminds you of a certain event
I want to know: A photo that makes you happy.
Tell me about Your dream wedding.

Day 8 — Write a letter to: Your favorite internet friend
Tell me: A song that you know all the words to
I want to know: The style you had 10 years ago.
Show me A song to match your mood.

Day 9 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish you could meet
Tell me: A song that you can dance to
I want to know: A photo you took.
Show me A photo of the item you last purchased.

Day 10 — Write a letter to: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Tell me: A song that makes you fall asleep
I want to know: About a regret you have.
Show me A photo of our favorite place to eat.

Day 11 — Write a letter to: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Tell me: A song from your favorite band
I want to know: A story from your childhood.
Tell me What’s in your makeup bag?

Day 12 — Write a letter to: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Tell me: A song from a band you hate
I want to know: How you got one of your scars.
Show me A photograph of the town you live in.

Day 13 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish could forgive you
Tell me: A song that is a guilty pleasure
I want to know: How do you think others view you?
Tell me Your favorite musician and why?

Day 14 — Write a letter to: Someone you’ve drifted away from
Tell me: A song that no one would expect you to love
I want to know: About the cuteness of your pets.
I want to know A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

Day 15 — Write a letter to: The person you miss the most
Tell me: A song that describes you
I want to know: A poem you wrote.
Show me Something you don’t leave the house without.

Day 16 — Write a letter to: Someone that’s not in your state/country 
Tell me: A song that you used to love but now hate
I want to know: A song that makes you cry (or nearly).
Show me Your celebrity crush.

Day 17 — Write a letter to: Someone from your childhood
Tell me: A song that you hear often on the radio
I want to know: An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.
I want to see A photo of you and your family.

Day 18 — Write a letter to: The person that you wish you could be
Tell me: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
I want to know: About your best friend.
I want to know Something you crave a lot.

Day 19 — Write a letter to: Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Tell me: A song from your favorite album
I want to know: A talent of yours.
I want to see Another picture of yourself.

Day 20 — Write a letter to: The one that broke your heart the hardest
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re angry
I want to know: A hobby of yours.
I want to know The meaning behind your blog name.

Day 21 — Write a letter to: Someone you judged by their first impression
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re happy
I want to know: A recipe.
Show me A photo of something that makes you happy.

Day 22 — Write a letter to: Someone you want to give a second chance to
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re sad
I want to know: Your deepest fear.
Write A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Day 23 — Write a letter to: The last person you kissed
Tell me: A song that you want to play at your wedding
I want to know: How much you love yourself. Write a love letter to yourself.
Tell me 15 facts about you.

Day 24 — Write a letter to: The person that gave you your favorite memory
Tell me: A song that you want to play at your funeral
I want to know: Your most guilty pleasure. Reveal it.
Show me A photo of something that means a lot to you.

Day 25 — Write a letter to: The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Tell me: A song that makes you laugh
I want to know: If you have tattoos, show them. If not, talk about the tattoos you want or why you don't think they are right for you.
Show me what's in your purse?

Day 26 — Write a letter to: The last person you made a pinky promise to
Tell me: A song that you can play on an instrument
I want to know: About the last "random act of kindness" you encountered.
Show me a photo of somewhere you've been to.

Day 27 — Write a letter to: The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Tell me: A song that you wish you could play
I want to know: The last thing that made you cry.
Show me  A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

Day 28 — Write a letter to: Someone that changed your life
Tell me: A song that makes you feel guilty
I want to know: Say something to your 15 year old self.
Tell me Your favorite movie.

Day 29 — Write a letter to: The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Tell me: A song from your childhood
I want to know: your Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days.
Tell me Something you could never get tired of doing.

Day 30 — Write a letter to: Your reflection in the mirror 
Tell me: Your favorite song at this time last year 
 I want to know: what you have learned, if anything, about yourself in the last 30 days. 
Show  me A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

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