Saturday, December 28, 2013

Snowflake Swap 2013

My friend Jane co-hosted a swap with a couple other bloggers for Christmas. I thought it was a neat idea, so I thought I'd join. Boy am I glad I did!

My Partner was Angie, we had so much in common, it just seemed too perfect that we got paired! Her words in her e-mail to me about being paired "There is no doubt that GOD put us together as partners!"
You see, she adopted her son, and he's joining the Army and going to Basic at Fort Jackson, which is where we were living, until today! (We are currently moving to Dahlonega, Georgia since my husband is getting out of the Army in February and started his Terminal Leave, so while ya'll read this, I'll be driving!!)

I wish I had taken pictures before I sent her package off! I had so much fun putting thought into her gifts. I bought her these super cute labels for her mason jars, she cans the things she grows in her garden, and I knew my friend over at the Sassy Seamstress had the cutest labels! She decorates 2 trees, and puts Hope ornaments for her granddaughter on one, I got her a heart shaped frame, so she could put her sweet granddaughters picture on her tree!! I also got her a couple for her other tree! I also made homemade Hot Cocoa and put lots of chocolate in there!! I hope she loved her package as much as I loved mine!!

Now for my package!!!!

Candy, Starbucks Gift card and how cute is that hot cocoa and marshmallows in an ornament!

This looks like homemade Sugar Scrub, it smells AMAZING and I don't know why I haven't tried it yet, but I can't wait to try it!!!

She sent 2 scrap book kits, they're both so pretty, the bottom one will be perfect to put some of our Hawaii pictures on! And those little gift tags are so cute!!!!

I'm a sucker for anything that makes my house smell good! I can't wait to use this when we get settled once my husband finds a job!!!

Thank you so much Angie for the goodies!! I enjoyed getting to know a little about you, and I hope that we can keep in touch!! 

Head over to Moira's, Acacia's or Jane's Blogs to link up your post or to check out what other's got from their partner's and keep an eye out, there are rumors that there might be a Snowflake Swap next year too!!!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

5 years, to the day

It didn't dawn on me until today, that it hasn't just been 5 years since I gave birth and placed my son, but 5 years to the day.

J was born on a Tuesday morning, I signed the papers on a Wednesday morning. Wednesday was also the day that I held him for the first time and last time. It's also the day he got to leave the hospital. Sleeping in the hospital Tuesday night wasn't as bad as Wednesday because I knew my son was under the same roof, but Wednesday night, knowing he was sleeping somewhere else, it was really hard. Leaving the hospital without him was probably even harder. It's not natural for a mother to walk into a hospital with her son safely inside her, and to leave without him.

The day after his birthday is almost always worse than his birthday. They're both pretty hard on me. But I have an amazing support system. My husband is great, he doesn't understand, but he's here for me and knows when I need him. And all my friends are great. I don't know where I'd be without them.

I started a couple years ago, having cake and celebrating his birthday. I think it was just too hard the first few years. But now that I've started, I don't think I ever want to not do it.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Missing Hawaii

The weather is crazy here. One day it's in the high 70's, sometimes even 80's. Then the next day it's 30. One day I have the AC going, the next day the heat. I try to leave it completely off, but when it gets cold outside, it tends to get too cold inside. But if I leave the heat on, even with it set at 68, it can get so hot if it is in the 70's outside.

This weather is really making me miss Hawaii. It's not that I don't like the cold, I guess it kind of is that I don't like the cold. It's the back and forth of the weather. Either be hot or cold, pick one, and stick with it. It is making my sinuses go CRAZY...I've had more sinus headaches lately than I have in a really long time. I just wish the weather would make up it's mind!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Things are pretty boring around these parts. Not much to talk about.

We've officially put our baby plans on hold since we found out Steven will be getting out of the Army in February. It's kind of a mixed blessing type thing. I'm mostly okay with our decision, I do have my days where I really wish we could go ahead and have one, but then I'm really enjoying being child free. Besides, this should help us find a job and new city with more ease. And with the Clomid not really helping us achieve pregnancy, things look like we may need more help, and that is just something we can't afford or have time for right now.

I got an update from the Adoptive Family a few months ago with some new pictures. He's gotten so big! It's really hard to believe he'll be 5 in December. Some days it feels like yesterday, other days it feels like longer. They gave me some exciting news, they started the process of Foster to Adopt. I think that is just so neat!

I've been a crafting machine lately, I've made 2 wreaths in like 2 weeks. I have some left over fabric from the last one I made and I think I'm going to make something to go in the middle of it, because it is just so plan. I made the tutorial for the first one and posted it on the other blog. A couple friends have asked me to make them one, so I'll have to get on that soon.
First wreath - House Divided GA Tech/UGA
Second Wreath - Falcons Wreath

Anyways, just thought I'd update a little. I really want to get better at blogging, but I just feel like I have nothing to say!

Thursday, August 1, 2013

July Blogger Book Club

Here is July's Blogger Book Club post, I did not get a chance to read the book they picked out, but I will review another book I read for a different book club I'm apart of.

Don't remember what the Blogger Book Club is about?!

I've joined My Name Is MadelineA Mile in Her Boots, and Confessions of a Busy Busy Bee and we will be reading a book a month and reviewing it on the last day of each month, starting in June 2013 and ending in June 2014. You'll read one book each month that has already been picked out, and write a review on your blog answering the questions provided regarding the book. Be sure to go to their blogs to link up!!!!!

July's book was America the Beautiful by Ben Carson, however, I didn't read that book, instead I read Bound South by Susan Rebecca White, August's is Start by Jon Acuff

**Spoilers ahead**

1. What is the book about?
From Amazon - "By turns hilarious and poignant, the lives of three vibrant and unique Southern women -- a proper Atlanta matron, her rebellious teenage daughter, and their housekeeper's young daughter -- intersect in unexpected and extraordinary ways in this richly compelling debut novel of family, friendship, and folly."

2. What were your initial thoughts on the book? Were you impressed? Disappointed?
We read this book for the book club I joined when I got to Fort Jackson, the one who told us about it said she was recommended it and they told her it was funny. But I did not find this book funny at all, there really were only maybe 1 or 2 funny things.

I had to keep a list of who each chapter was about and the time that chapter was written (i.e. Louise, Fall 1998 then the next chapter was Caroline, Fall 1999) so I wouldn't have to search. It jumped around from person to person, which I guess when it's about 3 different people that makes sense, but it made it really hard to keep track of what was going on. 

I really was not impressed with the book, I tend to read romance novels, so I'm usually not too shocked by crude things, but this book seemed to go way too far. 

3. Favorite Shocking quotations from the book.
There are a few things that were said that made me really shocked...

One was when Louise was describing what her daughter smelled like after being at a party, it's one thing to say she smells like stale beer and sex, but she took it way too far - saying "she smelled like some boy's dried semen, probably caked on that flat stomach of hers"

Another was Caroline, with the teacher she had a relationship with, they wanted to get something for lunch but it was Sunday and she wanted Chick-Fil-A and got so mad they were closed she exclaimed "f***ing Christians" - I get it, we've all forgotten Chick-Fil-A is closed on Sundays, and it is annoying, but what she said was uncalled for.

4. What did you like most about the book?
The writing really wasn't that bad, it was just what she wrote about that had me unimpressed.

5. Would you recommend this book to a friend?
No, and I'm so very glad I used my swagbucks to buy Amazon giftcards to buy this book.

Thursday, July 11, 2013


If at first you don't succeed, try, try again....

We aren't too disappointed about a failed cycle of Clomid, as it is our first one, and we are still waiting on blood work results to see if it even worked. That's not to say I wasn't sad when I realized we weren't pregnant.

So the game plan now is to take a break this month from the Clomid as I'll be gone during the vital days. I really didn't have many side effects from the Clomid, I might have gotten a little crazy a few times, but nothing Steven couldn't handle, and there were a million hot flashes. And I really feel like the Clomid made me ovulate because boy did my ovaries hurt. And now that we aren't pregnant these cramps are by far the worse cramps I've ever experienced, and there have been some pretty bad ones. If my sister weren't visiting and if my birthday hadn't have been yesterday I would have likely spent the whole week in bed with my heating pad and begged my doctor for something way stronger than Naproxen. But my sister is here, and my birthday was yesterday!

Speaking of my birthday, I got some pictures of J this week. He has gotten so big, and I just cannot believe he's going to be 5 in a few months. Steven looked at his picture and said he looks just like me. It really made me happy to hear. His mother also told me they are going to start the process to adopt again, this time they're going to foster and then adopt. She said the boys are so excited to have siblings and ask all the time when they'll join the family.

It was also really special to spend my birthday with my sister. I cannot remember the last time I got to spend it with her. For the last few years we've never been in town, and she's spending a few weeks here. I went to Olive Garden with some new friends for lunch. I had another new friend make me a cake, it was heavenly! Then Steven was able to get off work early and we went to Outback. I got sung to at Olive Garden and Outback. Today I went to Starbucks for my free drink because I just did not have time yesterday. This weekend Steven is suppose to take me to The Melting Pot.

And hopefully the weekend brings sunshine, because I'm SO sick of all this rain!!!

Monday, July 1, 2013

June Book - The Help

Since we were on vacation the last week of June, my review and answers for the Blogger Book Club are just a tad late - oops, I'll try to do better next month!!

Don't remember what it's about?!

I've joined My Name Is Madeline, A Mile in Her Boots, and Confessions of a Busy Busy Bee and we will be reading a book a month and reviewing it on the last day of each month, starting in June 2013 and ending in June 2014. You'll read one book each month that has already been picked out, and write a review on your blog answering the questions provided regarding the book. Be sure to go to their blogs to link up!!!!!

1. What is the book about?
It's been a while since I read this book, I read it back when the movie first came out, I wanted to read it before I saw it, so my review might be a little lacking.

Skeeter, who just graduated from Ole Miss in the 1960's moves back home, and learns that the maid who basically raised her is no longer working for them, she tries to find out what happens. In doing so, she realizes that there are many maids who are mistreated by their employers, so she decides to write a book, Aibileen, and Minny reluctantly, help her write a book that is a tell all about what it's like to work for the white woman in their town in Mississippi.

2. What were your initial thoughts on the book? Were you impressed? Disappointed?
I loved it, it was such a good book. And man was it hilarious at some times!!!

3. Favorite quotations from the book.
It's been so long since I read it, I can't think of any, but my favorite part is when Minny gives Hilly shit pie and Hilly eats it.

4. What did you like most about the book?
It was a fast read, and I loved the friendship that Skeeter made with Aibileen and Minny. I'm glad I read the book before I saw the movie. And it really only took me a week to read. T

5. Would you recommend this book to a friend?
Yes, I would totally recommend it friends, along with the movie, but I'd recommend they read the book and then watch the movie!!

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Life After Placing...Infertility Treatments

It seems that one of my fears is coming true in regards to my life after placing. I'm suffering from secondary infertility.

I've stopped ovulating. The gyno I saw a week ago thinks that I do have PCOS, and that my inconsistent cycles are showing I don't ovulate. My blood work to confirm that had not come back from Fort Gordon Wednesday and my gyno went out of town, so we're acting as if I don't ovulate. So tonight, June 15, at 9:30 pm I started Clomid. And I'll take it every night, at the same time, for the following 5 nights.

So not looking forward to the side effects, but I'll gladly deal with those if it means we'll be able to have a child.

I do want to apologize in advance if I start acting crazy, one of the side effects is mood swings. So I might become crazy, my poor husband! Ha!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Blogger Bookclub, why not?!

I've recently joined a book club and I love it so much, so when I came across this idea of doing a Blogger Book Club I thought, how neat, why not. And the good thing is, they've picked the books already, and if you've already read that book for the month or you have no interest in that particular book, you can read another book. So head over to one of the hosts (linked below) and link up! Most importantly have fun!! I'm super excited about this and can't wait to get started!

What is the Blogger Book Club?
A book club for bloggers that will be hosted on My Name Is MadelineA Mile in Her Boots, and Confessions of a Busy Busy Bee on the last day of each month, starting in June 2013 and ending in June 2014. Just read one book each month that has already been picked out, and write a review on your blog answering particular questions regarding the book.

What do I have to do?
Follow the hosts
Link up each month.
Read the twelve pre-selected books.
Write a review on each book by the last day of the month.
Meet other bloggers while promoting your own blog.

What does the review have to be about?
To make it simpler for everybody, you will answer these five questions to help guide you:
1. What is the book about?
2. What were your initial thoughts on the book? Were you impressed? Disappointed?
3. Favorite quotations from the book.
4. What did you like most about the book?
5. Would you recommend this book to a friend?

Book List
June - The Help by Kathryn Stockett
July - American the Beautiful by Ben Carson
August - START by Jon Acuff
September - Bossypants by Tina Fey
October - The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
November - Z. A Novel of Zelda Fitzgerald by Therese Anne Fowler
December - The Shack by Wm. Paul Young
January - Looking for Alaska by John Gree
February - A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
March - Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini
April - Have No Shame by Melissa Foster
May - Paris in Love by Eloisa James
June - Pick your own novel month

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

National Infertility Awareness Week

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week, April 21-27. I know many people who suffer from infertility, I've seen the ups and downs they've felt. And I've felt them for them as well. I'm in no way comparing placing my son for adoption to the feelings that those who suffer from infertility feel when the people around them are getting pregnant and having children. But I know how much it can hurt.

We've been trying since he's been home, so going on 12 months. We even talked with an ob/gyn when we were in Hawaii because my PCM (Primary Care Manager) was convinced I had PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) even though the blood work and ultrasound came back negative. The ob/gyn explained it might take us a little longer since I was on anti-depressants for so long, and my body needs to start ovulating again. He said the anti-depressants made me stop ovulating.

I started having really irregular periods in July '11, before I stopped taking the anti-depressants. I stopped the anti-depressants in March/April '12. My longest cycle was 58 days, I had 3 cycles that were all over 45 days back to back. By August '12 I had two 12 day cycles, so that's why I called my PCM. Since that second 12 day cycle though, things have become more "normal." I'm hoping that means I've started ovulating. I've tried to use ovulation kits, but I'm not sure I'm doing it right, and I think that might be the only way I know if I ovulate because I can't tell, maybe I'm just not that intune with my body. Maybe I'm dumb...who knows...

We have decided that before we get that referral to a reproductive endocrinologist (fertility specialist) we're going to give it a few more months. I'm trying not to put too much pressure on myself but it's hard when the biggest fear I had after placing my son seems to be coming true. I know God has a plan for us, and I know whatever he decides will be awesome!

For more information on infertility, National Infertility Awareness Week, and how you can be a part of the movement, check out these two links:

Basic understanding of the disease of infertility
About National Infertility Awareness Week

Monday, April 8, 2013


Something I watched yesterday got me thinking. It was a Sunday, so nothing was on, so we were watching a Kourtney & Kim Take Miami marathon. On part 1 of the finale Kim is talking to Scott about babies, and what she'd do if she became pregnant. Clearly she either didn't know she was pregnant, or wasn't telling anyone. Because when asked what she'd do, she said she wouldn't "get rid of it" because that would be "selfish." It's unclear what she meant by "get rid of it" but either way, it kind of pissed me off.

Whether she was speaking of adoption or abortion, there are many different reasons for choosing one or the other. And not all of them are selfish. Of course, there are those women with less than honorable reasons, I'm not arguing that. I just can't help but defend the ones who weren't selfish in their decision to place their children. Because, when I made my adoption plan, the only person I thought of was my son. And what was best for him. I wasn't with his birth father, we weren't even speaking, and he had made it perfectly clear that a) he wasn't the dad, and b) he wouldn't help at all. And I knew that raising a child without a father was not going to be something I wanted to put my child through. A boy needs his father, just as much as he needs his mother. And I did not want to put my son through child support fights and have him questioning and wondering why his father didn't love him. So I gave him a great family, a mother and father and a big brother. I'm not saying I couldn't have done it, because I'm sure I would have found a way. What I'm saying is it wouldn't have been fair to my son. It would have been selfish of me to have kept him. But what I'm not saying is that single parents, or unwed parents are selfish, in any way shape or form. In fact, I have a great respect for them.

Anyways, that's what was on my mind. Take or leave it.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Our trip to Florida

We drove down to Florida Friday morning. We went to Venice, it’s 1 1/2 hours south of Tampa, so we stopped in Tampa to pick up my father. My Uncle turned 80 on Sunday, so we had a party and family reunion. It’d been over 10 years since I’d seen most of the people there. Everyone couldn’t make it, and we missed them.

My grandparents came down with my Aunt, Uncle and cousin. My dad’s side of the family is HUGE. My grandfather had 12 brothers and sisters, and then they got married and had kids, and they got married and had kids. And my grandparents and Aunt and Uncle are all brother and sister. My Aunt is Papa’s sister, and my Uncle is Grandma’s brother. They all grew up together.

image_7From left to right: Uncle Chuck (father’s brother), Papa, Grandma, Uncle Tommy(birthday boy, and grandma’s brother), Auntie Shirl(Papa’s sister), Dad, me, Cousin Paige. Back row: Husband and Aunt Sue (Uncle Chuck’s wife) – my brother and cousin weren’t able to make it, so we’ll have to retake this picture next time we’re all together!

We got there Friday night and went to the beach for a little sunset party, of course because of traffic and picking up daddy at the airport we got there after sunset, but still had fun, and got to see everyone. After the beach we all went to Uncle Tommy and Aunt Shirl’s for an after party. First we went to the hotel and checked into our room and got settled. Husband and I were exhausted from driving all day, so we stayed for a little while.

Saturday was pretty relaxed during the day, we had breakfast at the hotel, gotta love Holiday Inn Express and their free breakfast! We spent time with Grandma and Papa, and then got ready for the day. We had lunch with some more family. There were 13 of us, we went to this place within walking distance of the hotel, we thought it was bigger, but it was a small mom and pop place.

image (2) The only one who wasn’t part of our group is the man in the yellow…but my father and Rocco are sitting at the counter.

Lunch was really good. They had burgers, hot dogs, sandwiches, fries and onion rings. It was called BrewBurger.

After lunch we waited for Uncle Tommy to come by with the JumpStart, husband left the lights on when we got back from the beach party Friday night, and my battery was DEAD! We found it dead earlier that morning, I asked if he had left the lights on, and he said he didn’t remember, so I went to look, and of course my lights were set to “on.” Uncle Tommy, Dad and I got it started, so Daddy and I took it for a drive. The radio needed to be reset, and since we had the car shipped I hadn’t put everything back in it, so I didn’t know the code, nor that the code was on a sticker inside the glove box, so dad and I drove to the Honda dealership! It gave us time together, and Daisy (my car) needed to run for a while. While we were out everyone else, but Husband, went out looking for the Tervis store. They couldn’t find it, the lady at the hotel gave them back directions. So we hung out at the pool and then got ready for the actual dinner party for Uncle Tommy.

The dinner was at the Italian American Club, Italian food and open bar, it wouldn’t have been a family get together without the two! There was a lot of alcohol consumption that weekend. Like I said, it wouldn’t have been a get together without it! There was cake, of course, and Uncle Tommy and a few of my cousins got into it!

image_4From left to right: Cousin Dan, two of our newest editions, Cousin Tara and Uncle Tommy

Sunday morning we met at Uncle Tommy and Auntie Shirl’s for brunch. it was a lot of food, like always! Before we hit the road, we went to the Tervis Tumbler Factory in Osprey with Aunt Sue and Paige. That store is awesome. We had 15% off coupons, and for every $40 you spend you got a free lid, handle or straw. We got a few Tumblers.

The weekend was amazing, and I was so glad Husband got to meet all my family. I know he was overwhelmed by it all. We are quite loud, I mean, we are Italian!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

A random thought

Steven and I went to Florida for the weekend. My Uncle turned 80 Sunday and we got most of the family together. It had been over 10 years since I’d seen most of them. It was awesome, more on that later. Right now though, I have something else on my mind…

Shaving your legs in the summer vs. the winter. I swear when we were in Hawaii I could go a whole week without shaving, maybe even longer, and my hair wouldn’t be nearly as long after only 2 days since we’ve moved to a colder climate. And I noticed this when we were in Florida this weekend. And this is why I love summer and warm weather. I hate to shave. And since we moved here, and have a much smaller hot water tank, I’ve noticed that our shower doesn’t stay nearly warm enough the whole time I’m in there. Seriously people, I take 15 min showers, at max. I know I should probably get maintenance to come check it out. But we’re still living out of boxes, and I’m embarrassed even saying it, let alone letting anyone in my house to see!

Does anyone else notice that about the hair growth though? Or is it just me?

Yea, I figured it was just me…

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Wednesday, February 6, 2013


It’s been a while, things have been really busy. We moved from Hawaii to South Carolina. Spent Christmas in Dahlonega, Chattanooga and Atlanta. And then the hubby started his new job. Now I’m trying to get the apartment in order, unpacked and figure out what I’m going to do in South Carolina.

I’m also anxiously awaiting an update letter with pictures. I did get an email on his birthday with pictures! He turned 4 in December. Hard to believe it’s been 4 years. Most of the time it feels longer, then some days it seems like yesterday. He’s doing well, getting big.

We’re not sure how long exactly we’ll be here in South Carolina, we are hoping to get to Oklahoma at some point, if not, we don’t know where we’ll head. A lot of things are up in the air. We should have answers in August, maybe September.