Day 17 & 18 of the challenge

Day 17 — Write a letter to: Someone from your childhood
Gosh, I have a lot of people from my childhood I’d love to write to…since we moved around a lot, and when it was before social media websites, we all lost contact. I’ve tried to find a few of them on facebook now, but I’m not sure where any of them are.
I guess I’ll just write to the ones I wish I had contact with again, and what I’d like to tell ya’ll is that I miss you. And I think of you, and wonder what our lives would have been like if we’d stayed in contact, or I hadn’t have moved. I know ya’ll were amazing because you made me feel so welcomed and loved when I was there. I know I remember you for that because so many people weren’t so nice to me. I do remember the ones who weren’t nice to me, but I don’t think I’ll waste my time. Thanks for the memories.

Tell me: A song that you hear often on the radio


I want to know: An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.
My Home is Where the Army sends us painted canvas! I can’t find a picture of it, and it has our last name on it, so I’m not going to take one.

I want to see A photo of you and your family.



Day 18 — Write a letter to: The person that you wish you could be
OH geez, this is rough, I’m not sure what to say…I guess I want to be more organized and better at cleaning. I just don’t know how to write a letter about that…because I’ve tried telling myself what to do in order to achieve those goals, but it doesn’t seem to help, LOL!

Tell me: A song that you wish you heard on the radio

I want to know: About your best friend.
Well, I have a few very best friends…They’re all loyal, loving, caring, there when I need them, and even if we don’t talk daily, it’s as if no time has passed when we do talk again. I love you girls so very very much, and I miss you all so much too. Even though we’re an ocean apart, you’re still my best friends

I want to know Something you crave a lot.

Day 15 & 16 of the challenge

Day 15 — Write a letter to: The person you miss the most

that’d be my HUBBY – it’s been close to 2 months since he left, so here goes…
I miss you so much every day, but know that I’m okay. I’m doing just fine. You are doing a great thing, and I’d be the biggest bitch on the planet if I weren’t supportive or having a hard time with the deployment. You don’t need the added stress from worrying about me back home. You need to focus on the mission and not me. And know that I’m doing great. I do miss you so much. And I do think about you all the time. I can’t wait to see you. <3

Tell me: A song that describes you

it’s something I’ve wanted to do my whole life, and it spoke to me, and I love it.

I want to know: A poem you wrote.

I don’t think I have any of my poem’s on this computer, and I haven’t written any in so long…

Show me Something you don’t leave the house without.

my cell phone

 

Day 16 — Write a letter to: Someone that’s not in your state/country

My sister – I miss you SO much and I hope I can get you out to Hawaii at some point. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you. You’re awesome. Love you.

Tell me: A song that you used to love but now hate

I want to know: A song that makes you cry (or nearly).

Show me Your celebrity crush.

this picture upsets me, I’m sad he’s married, but I’m married too, so I guess it’s okay, bahaha

Day 14 of the challenge

Day 14 — Write a letter to: Someone you’ve drifted away from

There are a few people, and so this is for them…
I’m so sorry we’ve drifted apart. I do think of you daily, and I only want you to be happy, and I think that part of that is to no longer speak. It hurts me, but if it’s what’s best then that’s that. I know I wasn’t acting grateful, but I know now that I did, and I’m sorry. I was grateful, and appreciative of all you did for me. I just hate that it took losing you to know that.

Tell me: A song that no one would expect you to love

I want to know: About the cuteness of your pets.

No pets……

I want to know A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

Game of Thrones, Big Bang Theory, NCIS, NCIS:LA, General Hospital, Shameless, Mad Love, Mike & Molly, Modern Family, Cougar Town, The Middle, Jerseylicious, and some others…LOL, I know that is way more than A tv show, but those are all the ones I like right now….well, I like more, just can’t think of them, bahaha

Day 13 of the challenge

Day 13 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish could forgive you

I guess anyone who hasn’t forgiven me for whatever reason, I’m not quite sure who I’ve done wrong, or why they are holding a grudge, so this will be just a blanket letter, or rather, writing, because it’s hard to write a letter asking someone to forgive you for something you don’t know you did =P I’m only human, and I know I’m not perfect. So there are people I’m sure are upset or not very happy with me. So, to them, I’m sorry, please forgive me, and know that whatever I did was not intentional and I will be glad to clear things up, if you come to me.

Tell me: A song that is a guilty pleasure

Sir Pyscho Sexy – Red Hot Chili Peppers

I want to know: How do you think others view you?

I’m not sure how they view me. I hope they view me as sweet and nice, and likeable. However, I know that some probably don’t. I think I’m like beer or fine wine, an acquired taste. I also speak my mind, and if I don’t agree with something that is going on around me, I might just let you know.
For example, I have a huge problem with people who allow their children to be rude in public places where adults are trying to talk. And I know I don’t tolerate things like that well, but if your children can’t act right in public, then maybe you should either not go to things or get them a sitter. OR you could start to discipline your children. I mean, when an adult is speaking, you should be quiet. That’s respectful. You shouldn’t try to out do the adult, and you shouldn’t interrupt adults when they are speaking to another adult. It seems like common sense, but I’m surrounding by a ton of uneducated and trashy people, who don’t care what their children do. It’s getting to the point where I am not wanting to go to things any more. And I’m going to give this one thing one more try, and then I’m done. I know it will look bad on my part if I stop going to these things, but I can’t handle the disrespectful children, I have very little patience for adults who don’t make their children mind other adults, and when the adults don’t respect other adults by having their children be disrespectful. Anyways, with that being said, someone decided to give me dirty looks whenever I would speak up about not being able to hear, and to that person, give me all the dirty looks you want, because it doesn’t change the fact that I don’t like what was going on, and it doesn’t make me stop, in fact, you can give me all the dirty looks you want, because it doesn’t hurt my feelings. Besides, I know what type of person you are, and you’re not someone I want to waste my time on.
It has taken me a while to come to these feelings, and I’m proud of myself. I do get my feelings hurt every once in a while, but I’m not dwelling on that any more. And if you have a problem with me, and I know about it, I’m not going to make a big deal about it, I won’t even ask you about it. But when I see you in person, you bet your ass I’ll be nice to you, ask how you’re doing, and move on. So for those who don’t like me, get over it, I’m not going to go anywhere. So there, a long answer…and it’s kind of all over the place, LOL! I think it takes a lot for a person to not care what other’s think of them, and I try very hard to not care. I think I’ve come a long way, but just like anyone, I have moments when I do care a lot.

Tell me Your favorite musician and why?

I don’t really have a favorite, I like a whole lot of different ones, and there are many reasons why I like each one, I just can’t think of them. HA!

Birth Mother’s Day

So Saturday was Birth Mother's Day. I think I've written about it before. It's a day to remember the ones who selflessly gave a child up for adoption. I've never really actively celebrated. I usually just get a simple Happy Mother's Day on Mother's Day. But this year, I tried to go out of my way to make it special for a few of the Birth Mother's in my life.

I have never been acknowledged by the adoptive family for mother’s day. It kind of bummed me out, and it still does, I just try not to let it affect my mood. This year was no different. I got NOTHING from them for Mother’s Day. She was already a mother when they adopted the baby, but she was a mother again because of me. And I feel like they just don’t appreciate it. I am sure these feelings are normal, and are probably for nothing, but still, I have them. And I’ve never been one to push aside my feelings, or not voice them. At least on my blog, I would never tell them how I really felt because I don’t want to jeopardize the updates I am suppose to get every 6 months. Which, if my math is correct is this month. I always get so anxious waiting for them. And I’ve also gotten worried in the past that they won’t come. I’m trying really hard not to do it this time. And I think I’ve said it before, but I just hate being the person who worries and complains about things that are out of my control. It just sucks because we had such an open dialogue before the baby was born, and I honestly didn’t think it would change after, but it changed big time. They decided to unfriend me around Mother’s day after he was born. Talk about a low blow. It hurt me so much. I knew it was coming. I had a message from them a few months before telling me they were going to do it. I just didn’t think they’d wait so long, or do it around Mother’s Day. I know their reasoning behind it, and I completely understand. I just think it was wrong and rude. And because we were friends, and had such an open dialogue during the pregnancy I thought it would stay the same, so I didn’t put much in the openness agreement. In fact, I don’t really think we have one.

Anyways, this was suppose to be about Birth Mother’s Day and the controversy, I guess that can be for another day.